laying cold & numb, she wondered if this was it. how much more could be endured? tired of living, not living. a cycle of unhappiness. the last few years were led by her demons.
I want my soul back.
im sorry mind. I didn’t obtain all the resources, lessons & objectives you stored. you;ve rusted. I sank your cells in marajuna & merely listened to slight thoughts, never thinking. you were a terrible thing to waste.
im sorry heart. now im just trying to figure how to resemble you. like continuing movement with a cramp, I kept bringing forth unnessesary hurt. I didn’t let situations & negative times stretch out. instead I prolonged the pain. the heart holds your entire system together.is this the reason i feel like i lose more of myself day by day?
i apolygize spirit. where was i headed without prayer? what did i think would be achieved? now i wake up & lye down on bended knee. the lord is my savior, i shall not want. starting completely over, writing my story.. new plot, new font.
i apolygize raven. the physical. you are a queen. your past desires were devilish. your aura was mean. to have it all together, you certainly continued to fall down. regain your strength, fix your fckin crown. they don’t mean you any good, they were all apart of the test. its time you become a woman nevertheless. shake the past, but remember it well. for you cannot afford to make the same mistakes. to fall under & surround yourself with the same breed of snakes. have faith, trust in god. & that alone, will see you through. the worst of it has ceased, its time to reassemble.. you.