The moment you realize everything at once, I suppose that’s rock bottom.
I’ve spent my entire life chasing happiness.
Anticipating your praise,
Visions of your eyes smiling at mine
like & lust
Don’t Be drawn away by my hesitation, but I always get a little dry mouthed when I use the word “us” ..
I keep relapsing.
I keep going against the grain
In between my legs,
Sinking into my brain.
Maybe because I want Tht spontaneous movie love..
The girl, the guy,. Sex on the first date
not having to create this bogus love story for the public to awe at..
Sucking on you until I want my jaws back..
I’m addicted to the silence & the peaceful look in your eyes. The lack of surprise when my thighs begin to shake out of control..
The hold of your embrace.
Aside from the love, I see things In you tht may be warnings.
But I can only imagine what you pick up Frm me..
I often wonder if the best way to find yourself is through somebody.
I love the way it happened.
Wasn’t scheduled, but we both knew.
Such a man about every stroke, every grunt, every time our eyes met my desire grew,
What does it take to truely be happy with someone?
Oppositely speaking, What does it take to be through?
I just want someone tht makes me feel numb.
I want you around.
Something abt your aura just holds shit down.
Licking me in spots tht haven’t been touched in a minute.
You recognize good pussy & beg to get off.in it.
We always beg heavy for the things we don’t need..
Previous days I beg you to tell me the truth about what you’ll do to hurt me, already anticipating the pain..
Blocking out the risks, moaning your name..
Last night we made love.
I didn’t feel anything but you.
Intimate moments followed by the oh so recycled line.. “so watching wanna do?”
God let him be a blessing.
If not a blessing then a break.
All for the good of education,
But I can’t take another lesson.
When someone continuously paints beautiful murals of their life in their head.. from larger aspects like the goals they will achieve throughout the day, to the trivial shit like he color they will paint their toes…..
And then things turn out the complete opposite. . You die a little bit inside.
Some mornings I use pastels, some mornings I use water colors. Fuck, I just want something to be proud of & display.
.. is about serving the Lord.
Ain’t no way around it. He brought me this far. & You don’t think he deserves A little gratitude?
I like girls, more.
I like lesbian porn, more.
Anonymous asked: You are just so beautiful. No i'm not talking about only your appearance, i'm talking about your heart. It's in the right place. And the beauty in your spirit is beyond measurable! Please don't let anyone make you believe that you aren't enough or aren't special because you are more than enough. Your whole being is ecstatically pleasing inside and out and I just want you to know that you are an astounding person. God Bless you and God Bless your soul <3
I read this over like 10 times. & I think im gonna read it everyday for a long time.
thankyou so much.